MY FAREWELL-FOR NOW

     Alright everybody it is only two more days until we are done here in STL and am I excited!! God has been doing a number of things in my life and I can't wait to see them all lived out. I started out this trip with a goal of memorizing the first 7 chapters of proverbs before we got back. But as I went I began to realize something. Or rather God began to show me something. As I worked may way through the first 4 chapters God started convicting me about what I was reading. It is then I noticed how off track my life had been. Also He showed me that memorizing in bulk, is not the best way to memorize. If you memorize something and never get anything out of it, then what good is it? Which is why I stopped. I want to be able to quote everything I memorize just by someone saying a random reference. That's why I quit. But I am still going over what I have already done.       I am going to just briefly let y'all in on my future plans. Two days ago I was offered a job in springfield, so I called my dad and talked it over with him. He said it was probably a good choice. So now on Monday I will be heading for Springfield for at least a year. Maybe longer. Wow am I nervous! And I don't know why. Ok so maybe I do. But, I mean, I went to Texas for longer than a year and didn't have any trouble. But for some reason this time is a lot worse. This time it feels like I am leaving a part of myself behind. And I know that's wrong, because I know that God wants me to be 100% where I am. Where ever you are, be all there. And that's hard! I know this is the right decision, but I had already lined out my whole summer/year. I had two jobs, and I was offered another one.  I guess the thing I don't like the most, is everyone I am leaving behind. Mainly Sam, and Skyler. We are all going through somewhat the same things. In some way or another. Me and Skyler were going to sit down and have some GOOD conversations. But now I can only hope it will still happen.       On the other hand I am sooo excited to be going. It answers all my questions I had. I mean yeah. God answered my prayers by giving me this opportunity! I only pray that I will use it wisely. And here I will let you in on a little secret. God has been pointing me in one direction for over a year now, and this only confirms it. God has really been teaching me patience, and the trying of your faith worketh patience. And it is now time to exhibit what He has taught me.         Pleas don't worry. I will be able to keep updating this blog just as often while I am there. In fact if you don't see another update in the next week, say something about it. Because I really need to stay focused and keep writing. And learning. And reading. And memorizing. And praying. I know God has been working in my life, and I am excited about what he will do next. Who knows, it may even involve you. Two years ago if you had told me I would go to the Bahamas, and travel around the us, I would  probably have said, Your Crazy. So who knows what will happen.      I know this post has a lot of, maybe, weird stuff in it, but then again part of the reason this blog exists, is to let y'all know what is going on in my life. One of the MOST important part of being a leader, and especially a spiritual leader, is to live your life like its an open book.         The hardest thing for me is waiting on God, and acknowledging his will for my life. A lot of times I recognize what His will is, choosing to do it, is the hard part. I ultimately want to do his will, but inwardly my flesh often over-rules.         And that about sums up this post. may God bless you, in the same amount of your faith.