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I know I know I know, I said I would keep you up to date often, but I never anticipated what I would encounter here. I have so little time to collect my thoughts, and organize them into something my readers can understand. I am finding it very difficult to focus on myself at this point. I spend all of my time focusing on my cadets problems. But it does keep me busy and out of trouble, so I guess it's better then nothing at all.. I told someone that all the counseling I have been doing was getting old. And that was a lie, or a miss use of words. Because having the opportunity to minister to these kids is my life! Relationships are my life! It's just dis-heartening to see every little thing you do seemingly go in one ear and out the other.

But on the other hand my job isn't to change them. But to show them a Biblical World, and to give them an example of what that looks like when it is lived out. Also to be a father like figure for them. This is very difficult to do. Because they refuse to see the good in what we do. Yes they refuse. They know it's good, but they refuse to give up the things of this world. But who am I to tell them any different? I do the same thing! What's the difference between them and us, if we do the same things? The difference is Jesus Christ. Without him we would be the same.

Things have started to pick back now. We were down one TAC officer this past two weeks while he participating in the schools Crusaders Challenge. This challenge consists of a lot of physical activity with minimal food and sleep. He came out victorious along with three others out of the about twenty that started. Also with it now nearing the first break, we are starting to see the kids' desire not to go home because they want to stay. The strange part is that they hate it here. But they get more love here. Even if they refuse to admit it.

I am still on crutches and probably will be for quite some time. I have a doctors appointment with a specialist this week to determine the extent of the damage. I am nervous because I have never had an injury that has lasted this long! And I thoroughly hate being crippled! But it was Gods plan, so here I am. And it has taught me a lot about being dependent on others instead of being selfish and doing everything myself! Which has been a big part of my life. Selfishness. I am a very selfish self-centered person. But I keep my eyes pointed up, because that is where my strength comes from. No matter what I have done.

I know it's not long. But it's enough. Thanks for the continued prayer and support!